haven't exactly slept @ home for the past few days... for various reasons...

i miss home! >_<  i miss my bed

bo go ship uh yoh...

the summer is almost half over... there are still so many places i wanna go eat at (haha, yes, my main goal in life), and board games to play, movies to watch (not many left on my list), songs to sing, pictures to take, people to see... GOTTA MAKE IT HAPPEN!!  i feel that by the end of this summer, i am officially OLD T_T  I feel old, i look old, i AM old O_O  so it's now or never, man!

ganbatte, rinni!  ganbatte everyone!

傷心的歌 - 周華健

夢　天長地久的夢　地老天荒還是夢
天真的我不曾猶豫　我現在只剩下心痛
不曾有過感動　不曾如此怦然心動
飄忽的你就是這樣來去匆匆

錯　告訴我沒有錯　告訴我該怎麼做
現在的我偷偷的說　我還沒真正的錯過
不要說的太多　不要說還有很多
寂寞的我　傷心的歌　是誰的錯

我試著不再說　這裡只有我
日子一樣過　一回頭嘗盡苦果

無法忘記　不知道我該如何哭泣
不知道如何欺騙自己　是否知道只有你
無法忘記　是否所有的點點滴滴　
和那些醉人卻心痛的故事 就在我儘情哭過之後　
我就能入睡後忘記　卻怕夢到你
我不要夢到你

I cannot forget...
I don't know how I should cry, and how I should lie to myself. 
Are you all I've ever known?
I cannot forget...
Can all the memories and those indulging yet heartwrenching stories
fade away after I cry myself to sleep?
Except, I am afraid I'd dream of you.

New Year survey from Tracy~

Did you do something you would never do?: watched the Superbowl!  took Mokona for his 1st Vet check-up
 
Did anyone close to you give birth?: Chris & June - Noah!

Did anyone close to you die?: Grandma

Did you visit any countries?: ughhh, No

What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?: fix my body

Will any date from 2008 stay etched in your memory forever?: 07/24/2008 for a terrible reason

What was your biggest failure?: how to deal with people

Did you suffer illness or injury?: i guess not, thank goodness?

What was the best thing you bought in '08?: a f-kin' bed!!! xD

Did your behavior change over the year?: from bad to worse O_O

Where did you spend most of your money?: food, online shopping, rent, & Dad

Are you happier than this time last year?: heck no!  who gets happier as they get older?  and if u do, then kudos to u

What song will remind you of 2008?: No Air - Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown

What do you wish you would have done more of?: traveling

What do you wish you would have done less of?: masochism

What did/will you do for Christmas '08?: stayed in & went online

Did you fall in love in 2008?: more like fell in lust >_<

Did you get your heart broken in 2008?: yes

Favorite TV program of '08?: Knight Rider & Chuck

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?: yes and also like someone now that i hated last year - a breakthrough!

What was the best book you read and/or movie you saw?: reread And Then There Were None - Agatha Christie, movie: Get Smart

What was your greatest discovery?: hammer on & pull off.  that Mokona's a boy... oh, and the awkward turtle

What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?: 25 (again), went to Dangerfield's w/friends!

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?: going back to Taiwan <~~ let's see how many yrs will i keep repeating this line

How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2008?: west coast casual/preppy, some japanese-cutesy style, AND stripes b^_^d

Friends

Who was the best new person you met?: Jun & Kevin

Who did you wish you did not meet?: u meet every1 for a reason xP

Who was your best friend?: Derrick (still), Aaron, Jennz

Who was your enemy?: not sure if i had one, hmm.

Who do you miss?: Gracie T_T

Who will you never forget?: "the one who got away" >_<

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008: it is more important to have and be yourself, even if it means doing things the hard way.

What will you always remember about 2008?: how great it felt to be back "home"

Aspirations for 2009...

What do you want to do in '09 that you couldn't in '08?: completely let go of cause of pain

Any resolutions?: get glasses, get braces!

What will be different about 2009 than 2008?: keep in touch with people who matter

Anything you want to change about yourself for 2009?: try to go back towards the shade of white (if not, at lease gray)

Do you want to make more friends in 2009?: heck yeah!

值得一聽的好歌

光線漸漸照入沒開燈的窗
空空的酒杯 裝著滿滿的相思
你的形影雖然離開
但是我的心裡依然都是你

想你三天三夜 從頭到尾把你想一遍
明知道沒有用 風吹草動心也動
想你三天三夜 一點一滴該怎麼忘記
被你帶走的我的靈魂 只能隨風亂紛飛

很能形容我的感覺.  既然想念沒有用, 那也只能讓那種心情隨風亂紛飛吧...

累了

工作 - 我累了.  我沒辦法變成你們想要的哪個樣子.  我不會.

家人, 朋友 - 我累了.  你們總是我最大的鼓勵, 卻也是讓我崩潰的東西.  我發現你們也是有缺點的, 不是永遠可以靠的住的.  哪怎麼辦?

還有一樣, 是我無法衝破的烏雲.  我陷進了這裡好久, 也在這裡面打轉了好久. 

累壞了, 煩死了.

只能在這種安靜的夜晚, 聽着悲傷的情歌, 數着哭不出的淚水, 懷念着永不回來 - 已要逍逝的往事.

睡吧.